11.09.2010

Stop.

I can't live life the way I want to because of my parents. My mom yells me for always going out, but if i dont have a little freedom now, what will happen when I get to college? My friend told me I'm going to be enjoying so much freedom in college, I'm going to forget all my schoolwork and just party. I'm making sure that won't happen. But my mom's starting to make it come true.

My mom is so racist. I hate that. She yelled at me saying all these years in church and I have learned nothing. Truth is, in church, I learned to love everyone, no matter what color, race or ethnic. I learned to treat eaveryone the same, and I definitely learned to put everyone before me. Mom, can't you realize I am trying my best to enjoy my own life without you ruining it? At this moment, i could never be any happier, but you just ruined it. How can you be so heartless and cruel to the ones I hold dearest to my heart? Yes, I made mistakes, but I learned from them. You have to let me experience things so I can learn how to live my life in a mature way. I can't deal with all your bull all the time. You said as long as I live in your house, I have to listen to you, then why don't I move out? I'm tired of being pushed by you. I appreciate all you did for me, but honestly, when it comes to relationships and church, i DEFINITELY know what I'm doing. When you discouraged me saying i didnt apply anything to myself what i learned in church, i hate you for that. I work now, because you don't give me money anymore. You give Michelle. I get none. Why else did I start working? I hate how you treat me. I just freaking hate it. I'm trying not to curse, but the more you piss me off, the more likely I will.

For showing such prejudice, I hate you.