Great day went down, last minute....

What the fxxking shit? Fxxking dad is blaming shit on me and Michelle again. What the fxxk?! Just because the remote control is fxxking misplaced, doesn't ruin your whole fxxking life. Damn.

Like I said before, nothing will ever fxxking satisfy your fxxking needs. It's I want this now, I want that now. Never patient. When we wait for you, we wait. When you wait for us, It's like you're fxxking gonna shoot someone in the fxxking head. And if you are planning to shoot someone in the head, then you might as well fxxking do it to mine. I can't take all this bull anymore. Fxxking shit. I can't take anymore of what you fxxking want to fxxking say. 

It's fxxking not like you're going to fxxking die if the fxxking remote control is fxxking misplaced. Fxxk! You fxxking keep making up shit. If you want to fxxking move out, then fxxking move out. No one's fxxking stopping you. You have no fxxking idea what fxxking stress is fxxking placed upon me and Michelle. Damn. Mad shit comes upon my mind. And when you yell at me, i want to fxxking yell back so fxxking bad. Next time, I will. Fxxk yeah I will. I'm not a little bitch anymore. I'm DEFINITELY not the same girl you knew couple years ago. I fxxking grew. You can't even fxxking remember your daughters' age, birthday, grade, and almost everything thats important to us. Do you have any idea how much that fxxking hurts me and Michelle? Me and Michelle matured. We don't want to fxxking do things for you anymore that are pointless. You can do that to Samuel, but that's still fxxking wrong. Because you never will. He's your favorite son. And he's your only son. That's why you would do anything for him. You know almost everything about him. But you don't know him as well as the rest of the family.  You are never home, that's why you can't experience how it is to live with Samuel. It's not a torture, but what tortures me is how you talk about mommy. You say that she is fxxking practically useless. You assume that all she does is watch TV. Well, you're fxxking wrong! Being a mom is WAY harder than being a dad. Mom has to fxxking clean, cook, wash, and so many other more fxxking things. YOU wouldn't fxxking know that, because everything i mentioned, are things that you never fxxking do. You will never fxxking clean. All I ever saw you clean was the fish tank. Last time you cooked was couple years ago. If you think mommy's useless, then I'm worse. This is the MOST iMPORTANT thing to me ever is that:: Whenever me and Michelle were sick, you would NEVER, not ONCE in your LIFE, check up on us and see what was wrong. Only person who did that, was mommy. But if it was my brother, you would get your fxxking ass up. And fetch him tylenol or something. Idunno, don't care either. I love Samuel, just...not as much as you.

 Don't fxxking say mommy's useless. She means more to me than anything else in the world. I would fxxking suicide for her. And the way you fxxking say things about her, just makes me wanna fxxking smack the shit out of you. I'm old enough to hear things that shouldn't be heard and say things I shouldn't.

I know what is wrong and what is right. And what you're fxxking doing is wrong. I know me cursing right now is fxxking wrong too. But I just can't take the shit that you do. If you ever read this, don't get me wrong. But you act like an ass really often. You don't even know that I cry myself to sleep. You don't even know when you yell at me with a fxxking loud-ass voice because you're too fxxking wasted and drunk at three or four in the morning.....

Fxxk this. I'ma go. Next time I come, i'll probably be happier......

Valentines At School

Well, It's Valentines Day. And i woke up late =o= Like 4o minutes late... I rushed through everything. This sucked. It is friday the 13th and i had to freaking wear P.T gear... :[ So no red for me today. I saw Karen, my wifey, in the morning. She handed me a rose that was supposed to be given to our english teacher, Mrs.Picard. It's her birthday and Valentine's Day... So yeah. :]

Before 3rd period:

Usually I stand outside my friends' classroom, because i barely know anyone in my class. LMAO. It's like half-year in the semester, but yeah. So I see Steven, Shannon, another Steven, Jackie, Simon, Miguel, Aaron and Mashi! hehe. Well, everyone saw me holding the flower, and of course they asked. I answered: It's not for me, it's for a teacher. And yeah.

3rd period:

Math... Got my test back. Yeah, I'm not asian... I asian failed. =o= LMAO. Three points helped me. :D Ehh, lousy three points. Uhm.... three other girls asked, i answered differently. I answered: It's for someone. They assumed it was a guy of course. I didn't wanna say anything else. Math, was basically a free period. But we got a thick-ass packet to do over break. That's about it.

Between 3rd and 4th period:

I saw Taxi aka Inderprit LMAO. :D He walked me to class. Gianni was RIGHT next to me. Oh-dee. But i didn't notice him =o= until he called my name. I was like DAMN ftw?! Taxi walked me to class.. Oh yeahs. Gianni asked about the flower. He said: Is that from your boyfriend? I told the truth: no. He answered: psh, yeah right. Just ignore and laughed. Taxi had AP Java. While I had lab.

4th period:

Ms.Bonsey[pregnant living environment teacher who gave birth] was out. So we had a sub, Ms.Rosa. We had to hand in all out labs. It was annoying. SHE was annoying. I wanted to fxxk her up. But oh wells. She kept watching this thing on her laptop. This guy talking, in a native language LOL :] Then she kept us locked in the room till the bell rang. That got me really pissed off because i wanted to leave the fxxking room. Less than a minute, she lets us out. Me and Karen are like fast-walking. Oh yeahs. Since Bonsey's at labor. Our sub for living environment is Mr.Olson. He's a pretty cool guy. But we all want Bonsey back. Guess we don't know what we got till it's gone. Hmm... Oh wells. Gotta deal with it.

Between 4th and 5th period:

Nothing really. Just that Karen and Kurt hugged and.... That's about it. Oh, i took Kurt's phone. But Karen was such an angel to give it back to him. They look cute together, no? LMAO

5th period:

Living Environment. I didn't have breakfast. I was hungry as fxxk. I took out my lunch/breakfast and started eating. Home-made, shared it with my wifey :] Thennnnnnnnn... uh... test<- which i failed. Then next class ROFLS ^-^ Simon and Kurtis is always outside. Simon always makes Karen curse, so i yell at him :] Then i left.

6th period:

Walked into my Java room. On the third floor. Once again. Yes, my schedule is 2nd floor then 3rd then 2nd then 3rd then 1st then 2nd then trailers then 2nd then 1st. =o= Yeah.. Sucks lmao. Uhm... so yeah. Third floor. I walk in the room, i see everyone again. Jenna, Deeba, Debbie, Qiyan, Robert, Sung, Hassan, Tyrone, Hilda, Eric, Sehrish and WAY more. LMAO. Yeah. So i sat down, couple seconds later, Bryan appeared by my side. Said Hi. Then [This is where it starts to get interesting]

I heard an AHEM~. Twice. I turned around, and I saw Jay[Junior] with a blue rose in his hands. I blushed like I had never before. He stretched out his hand revealing a big heart at the end, and he said "Happy Valentine's Day". I was beyond shocked. I took the rose. And everyone was looking at us. I guess it was a once-in-a-lifetime moment. Everyone started clapping and aww-ing. It was an omg moment. I just never thought that Jay would have guts. Well i knew he had guts, but like, I never thought that he would give me the rose in front of the WHOLE class.

7th period:

Global. Test. Everyone was calling each other for answers. Lmao. Ilhyup texted me... =o= rofls. It was funny though. Ms.Franke saw my blue and red rose. She said: Cool roses, blue and red. I smiled and said Thank You. She was pregnant as well. But hers' is due later on.

Between 7th and 8th period:

I saw Simon outside. Along with Austin and Shantelle. Damn. ehhh. No comment. Well, i just gave Simon a hug. Then i headed up. I saw Runde Mo. He saw my flower. I saw a little bit disappointment in his eyes. But i didn't dare to say anything. So i started to walk towards Shirley, Lily, and Jennifer. They saw my flower. They asked.....of COURSE. Runde was following me. I didn't notice though. I answered, this junior. I think my feelings are coming back for Jay. Idunno. Then, i walked to my next class.

8th period:

JROTC. Today was P.T. But in class. Guys and Girls had to pair up. I paired up with Nazia. First push-ups then curl-ups. I did 30 push-ups and 28ish curl-ups. The last curl-up I did, was hilarious. I was so tired. So i went half-way then gave up. OMG. I was SO close to making it, but no. Damn stomach :[

9th period:

Spanish. Mrs.Fernandez. I walked into the classroom. It's trailers. So yeah. Fisr the class started out with nothing. Then Mrs.Fernandez noticed me with flowers.

She was like "So Vanessa, who gave you the flowers?"

Me: Oh this junior that you teach.

Her: Who? What period? -reaches for attendance sheet-

Me: Idunno.

Her: His name?

Classmate: Wow, Mrs.Fernandez, just leave the poor girl alone. Look at her, She's blushing.

Me: -LMAO- uhm...yang. Jayden

Her:-keeps looking and looking. Not giving up-

Me: =o= *cough*blind much?*cough*

Her: Oh well, I can't find him.

Me: mmkays.

Well that was weird, what was even more weird is that today, I participated in class like. Oh-dee. I kept raising my hand. :D

10th period:

English. Mrs.Picard. Me and Karen handed her, her presents. Karen gave the rose, i took out the card. She gave us both hugs. Throughout the class, Mrs.Picard handed out kisses. Then at the end, i took the whole bag :] hehe

11th period:

Band. Mr.Jordan. He was pretty cool and fun. Nothing special there. He's always working on parts, with different insturments. There is flutes, clarinets, trumpets, baritone, trumpet, alto and tenor sax, drums, guitar, and me, vibes. But he never works with me. The class is too easy. So yeah.

After 11th period:

Drill.... All we did was regulation, while Shirley and Brittany did exhibition. Idunno. I was pretty jealous. But we did have a new member, Genesis. And she's really fast. So i guess, I gotta kick it up a notch. Be extra sharp and learn wayy faster.

That's all for the day. Craziest moment was the Jay part. hahas